Trauma and resentment
What I dislike in others is all in me
Knowing kills its power
創傷和怨恨
我不喜歡別人的都反應在我身上
認知消除它的力量

Shadow is the aspect of a person that is not exposed to the light of their own consciousness, in other word, shadow lives in our subconsciousness. Why do we want them to remain hidden? Usually the shadow was generated since our childhood, we were conditioned, warned and punished by behaving a certain way, in order for a child to survive, we want to be loved and appreciated, so we denied, suppressed, rejected aspects of ourselves that we feel are negative (not all shadow are negative btw), but that side of us doesn’t disappear , it just fade from our conscious. Our reaction from doing shadow work usually is this— Resistance.

Why? Because it is extremely difficult to acknowledge something that you have been rejected your whole life. The original pain of rejection will come up everytime when we do the shadow work.

It will bring up the exact same feeling of rejection that trigger by our parents, family, caregiver. Make us feel like we will be punished again, it can really drive us insane because it challenge our survival mechanism.

Why is it important for us to do the shadow work?

These are the brave souls who understand that we have both lightness and darkness inside of us. We have to be willing to face, embrace, and incorporate the darkness into our being in order to be whole. As a soul we constantly seek to be unified, universe seek to grow and expand, same as our soul, universe will present us with every single opportunity to see the aspect of ourselves that we have rejected and denied , we will be provided every single opportunities to confront our shadow self. Our shadow will keep chasing us until we willing to face it one day.

No one ever reach true enlightenment without confronting their shadow and exposing it to the light of consciousness.

Bring attention and acceptance to the aspect of ourselves that was previous been denied is what I consider the highest form of light work that we can do.

是我們沒有暴露在自己意識下的那一面，換句話說，影子是存在於我們的潛意識中。為什麼有些方面我們寧願隱藏呢?通常這種壓制在潛意識的shadow side產生於我們的童年。

在童年時我們因某種行為而受到警告和懲罰。對孩子來說，我們都想要被愛和欣賞，所以我們選擇否定、壓抑、拒絕我們自己不被接受的一面(並不是所有的shadow side 都是消極的)，但其實我們的那一面並沒有消失，它只是從我們的意識中消失，藏在我們的潛意識中。我們對shadow work的反應通常抗拒的。為什麼?因為要承認一件你一生都在否定的事情是極其困難。

Shadow work會帶來被父母、家人所排斥的完全一樣的感覺。提起這些shadow side 讓我們覺得我們會再次受到懲罰, 因為這些陰暗面挑戰了我們的生存機制。

為什麼對我們來說shadow work很重要?我們的內心既有光明亦有黑暗。為了達致完整，我們必須願意面對、擁抱並將黑暗融入我們的存在。作為一個靈魂，我們不斷地尋求統一，尋求在宇宙中成長和擴展。就像我們的靈魂一樣，宇宙會給我們提供每一個機會，讓我們看到自己被拒絕和否定的一面。宇宙會提供每一個機會來讓我們面對真正的自我。我們的影子會一直追著我們，直到有一天我們願意面對它。

為了達到真正的覺悟/啟蒙，將自己抑壓的shadow side 暴露在意識下是一個極其重要的過程。

帶着全然的接受，勇敢的將注意力放在我們一生都在否定的一面，不是一件容易的事。

Year: 2021
Painting size: 15x30cm
Frame size: 31.5x44cm
Materials: paper, metallic watercolor, pencils, gouache, oil pastel, broken gold pen
年度: 2021
畫作尺寸: 15x30cm
畫框尺寸: 31.5x44cm
媒材: 紙, 金屬色水彩, 鉛筆, 廣告顏料, 油蠟筆, 壞掉金筆

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